Sad...
nothing else can really define how I'm feeling now......
Incidents over incident that had happen around us...
paused us for a moment to recap our thinking box and make decision..
some decisions made with no sense of guilt and regrets..
some in later part or rather in later point of life when we flash back, we'll be filled of sorrows and regrets...
Had i made the right decision? What will had happen if i take the other alternatives?
Well apparently what done's had already over. But the curiosity and the feeling of guiltiness is slowly but yet to shallow us whole.
What can be done? What do we need to do? Should continue with the life and pretend as if nothing had happen? How long can the effects of these last?
Lastly, why life is full of questions?
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
UNI-lives
Its been a long time since my last entry in this blog...
Well how times flies...the last times im writing in this blog was wen im waiting for my stpm and look at me now...im in UNI....hw unexpected...
But the unexpected doesnt just stop there....there's more...
In my current uni(utar) i was offer a course dat not in the wildest mind of mind could imagine that ill be taking...Business Administration major in BANKING AND FINANCE...hmm despite of what im getting for stpm Maths T i reli dunno exactly how i could be given this opportunities to study such an important yet difficult course...
On top of that, i ACTUALLY ACCEPTED this course...with the imagination that i can deal with it(hopefully reality)...
Well enough with the unexpected lets me review some of my first few weeks in uni...it was tough, everything had depends on myself, do myself...and for someone (like me) this is a drastic change in life...i mean man hw can i actually survive...and so i was right within the first week itself i dunno whether to consider myself lucky or unlucky....i was sharing a room with a person that i known for a few years since my form four...
BUT the best had yet to arrive...alone in this obscure world with nobody that can really be trusted, everything seems so strange and anew...
PLUS in the first week itself many of my things got spoil eg my handphone (whom i just bought in less than two weeks)
OKOK enough dun wanna keep bragging bout my lives...lets move on to studies...
like i said im taking an unexpected course...the subjects itself, are most of them new to me..
I mean i never knows whats account and economics until i take the subject...
first few weeks was ok...but i collapse on the three week...where i almost fell ill...
when i recover...i realized my old habit(sleeping,laziness, and slacking in studies) all coming back to me, all at once...
NOW im on the fifth week...everything becomes blur to me...esp accounting...man im just so lazy to study anymore...HOPEFULLY MY ULTIMATE MISSION/TARGET>to get overseas (travel all around the world) < can get my feet back up agn...
IN SOCIAL WISE i do actually meets some new friends but i dun really know hw to social well esp the ppl here most communicate using MANDARIN. How on the world can i speak mandarin, muz be a miracle for me to even understand a sentence...hahaha...but im good at pretending...so i just pretend to listen...
GUESS my worst nightmares are all coming to me at once...EXAMs AND ASSIGNMENTs...man this is my weakpoint...
well i guess i really nid to brush up my skills in order to graduate...
seriously, every1 said uni-life is interesting F them...is so FKing boring here...
Well how times flies...the last times im writing in this blog was wen im waiting for my stpm and look at me now...im in UNI....hw unexpected...
But the unexpected doesnt just stop there....there's more...
In my current uni(utar) i was offer a course dat not in the wildest mind of mind could imagine that ill be taking...Business Administration major in BANKING AND FINANCE...hmm despite of what im getting for stpm Maths T i reli dunno exactly how i could be given this opportunities to study such an important yet difficult course...
On top of that, i ACTUALLY ACCEPTED this course...with the imagination that i can deal with it(hopefully reality)...
Well enough with the unexpected lets me review some of my first few weeks in uni...it was tough, everything had depends on myself, do myself...and for someone (like me) this is a drastic change in life...i mean man hw can i actually survive...and so i was right within the first week itself i dunno whether to consider myself lucky or unlucky....i was sharing a room with a person that i known for a few years since my form four...
BUT the best had yet to arrive...alone in this obscure world with nobody that can really be trusted, everything seems so strange and anew...
PLUS in the first week itself many of my things got spoil eg my handphone (whom i just bought in less than two weeks)
OKOK enough dun wanna keep bragging bout my lives...lets move on to studies...
like i said im taking an unexpected course...the subjects itself, are most of them new to me..
I mean i never knows whats account and economics until i take the subject...
first few weeks was ok...but i collapse on the three week...where i almost fell ill...
when i recover...i realized my old habit(sleeping,laziness, and slacking in studies) all coming back to me, all at once...
NOW im on the fifth week...everything becomes blur to me...esp accounting...man im just so lazy to study anymore...HOPEFULLY MY ULTIMATE MISSION/TARGET>to get overseas (travel all around the world) < can get my feet back up agn...
IN SOCIAL WISE i do actually meets some new friends but i dun really know hw to social well esp the ppl here most communicate using MANDARIN. How on the world can i speak mandarin, muz be a miracle for me to even understand a sentence...hahaha...but im good at pretending...so i just pretend to listen...
GUESS my worst nightmares are all coming to me at once...EXAMs AND ASSIGNMENTs...man this is my weakpoint...
well i guess i really nid to brush up my skills in order to graduate...
seriously, every1 said uni-life is interesting F them...is so FKing boring here...
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